>>7232653i understand how you feel man. this sounds terrible but i mean it in the best way possible, you deserve better and you deserve to meet people who love and cherish you. toxic relationships arent worth staying in, this comes from a person who has lived through many abusive and toxic relationships. i know youve probably heard this all before, but i mean it, anon. its hard to get out of relationships like this because they make you feel alone, but once youre out of it, youll see how many people you really have with you.