>>7613757I wouldn't say so, noone I know was ever really successful and all my idols are either long dead or doing well.
However, I was raised on success. Gifted child, blah blah blah, look he can talk already, look he can read already, look he taught himself english, look he taught himself latin, aren't his grades so great? Yadayadayada.
I'm not like one of those asian kids that live for school and spend their whole life learning, I've always had room to breathe and my parents didn't outright tell me to be this or do that, but I've always been expected to be better than everyone else, by everybody, which frankly i never really struggled with (excluding sports), but now there's real stakes.
I'm "playing with the bad boys now", as my dad would say and it's going too well. I'm pulling cash from thin air, but I'm not supposed to.
Every book I've read, everything I've learned for this has taught me I'm supposed to lose money in the beginning. It's normal, it's healthy and it'll help me improve. My first deal was five days and made 2.6 grand, my next was a day and made 400 bucks, I've made far more than I've lost and it's terrifying, because I don't know how long it'll last.
I know success comes and goes and I'm not expecting to do this well forever, but this is my job now and I'm supposed to improve over time, this shouldn't be a lucky gamble.
I'm getting hotter and hotter and I'm afraid that at some point I'll burn.
