>>6438885my brain lies to me. it's self contradictory and painful. and it wants me to get hurt, i think. There's layers, going on here. There's the upper brain, which is me. There's the lower brain, which is also me but somewhat broken. And there's a bit in the middle which isn't me at all, and is very much broken. It's the staticky bit, I guess.
Point is the majority of my brain is nonfunctional and even the bit that is me is hilariously self destructive and I just don't know how to handle it. I'm going to therapy, I have an appointment with a psychiatrist to discuss prescription options, and i have every reason to want to stay alive but most of me wants to just. step back. stop. and just not be.
>>6438899doesn't work for me, makes me more paranoid and hallucinate more than usual
