>>8031927Life has given me a pretty monkey-pawed hand and I've been playing like shit, if at all.
On one hand, my family is pretty united and supportive. On the other, there are a lot of responsibility issues and underlying selfishness that's fucking things up beyond plain sight and no one wants to be the one bringing up the problems because procrastination and playing it off is the law of the land.
Especially relating to work. We have our own business that it allows us to live independently, free of worries but the problems above and a general sense of laziness and stuck-up ways from the older generations are holding us back, also, it's an industry I fucking hate and I'd loathe to have to give my life to this.
We live in a very relatively peaceful place where we have history, support and trust but it's the middle of nowhere in the ass of the world in a third-world shithole constantly on the brink of collapse which makes all future prospects grim and I simply fucking hate it here.
On my end, I am a virgin misanthropic neet with no desire in life other than to fuck around my PC, or so I'd like to say, because of all the actual shit I've always wanted to do, which is something I've always known since young always felt like they were unrealistic and/or never worth the trouble they demanded. Ultimately I decided to risk it all for a chance of my actual dreams but I'm barely close to even beginning to try and I'm not approaching them with any diligence or effort, despite the seas of uncertainty then come with, when I could perfectly focus on the place where I am right now and try to make it work not only for me but for my family and get a decent life out of this at the cost of being forever bound to this shit.
It feels like I either get a good life I hate or risk it all for something that could turn out shit and even if not I don't know if it'll be for me.
So for now, I'm going one step at a time. GTFO first.
