>>6930569Dump her, drop her, let go.
I know that in your heart of hearts you may think that this is the one; the love of your life, and there is no one like her - but that's simply not true. There are around 7 billion people on this blue, shit filled place and the likelihood that you'll find another love minus the issues is extremely high. Trust me, I've dealt with alcoholic loved ones, they are unfixable. All they do is leech and leech, leaning on you as a crutch until eventually you both fall. Save yourself, grab the cliff and let her go.
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I'm entering university soon (finally). As many on this board and this site in general, I am a complete social degenerate. But it's strange, I am capable of making people like me, but I can't stand the voice of 99% of the people I meet. It's like I socialize and hook up with people whenever I do because that's "what is normal people do". I just don't understand why I can't have the same aspirations as other people - and I think that is what disturbs me about myself. I loathe enjoyment - everytime I have a fun or good day in anyway, I regret it afterwards knowing that I don't deserve it.
The easiest summary of myself and my life is I just don't understand myself.
Oh and I LOVE baroque/romantic paintings
