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In July my uncle needed a place to stay, so we offered and he moved in with us for a week or two, and his belongings included two handguns. On the night of what would've been me and my exes one month, I had a mental breakdown and nearly took my life. I remember having the gun up against my head, drunk, crying, just wanting to pull the trigger so bad. I still think about it to this day. Obviously I didn't do it since I'm writing this rn, so I just unloaded the gun and went to sleep. In September I was finally getting over her, and life was slightly improving. She and I started talking and we became friends again and it was just really nice. Then in October, she and I started getting closer and she would FaceTime me again, and I could tell she was becoming interested in me. She and her bf (unsurprisingly it was the ex) weren't doing great and I gave her unbiased advice but it didn't seem to work because she told me they broke up a few nights after. We hung out in person a few times in the proceeding weeks and one night after star gazing and before I was going to drop her off at home, she kissed me in my car. It then turned into a hook up and the next day we decided we'd try a relationship thing again but keep it on the dl.
