>>5942296Thanks a lot Veli. Can I call you that way? Your words helped me. You didn't say anything I didn't know but it is nice to have someone who actually cares or pretend pretty well that he does. I think your job in this thread is great. I was surprised when you didn't call me newfag or said me go kill yourself like it would have happened in /b/ or pretty much anywhere else. Thanks, and I'm not going to stop saying it to you, so get used to it.
You said that when you are depressed you don't find anything enjoyable. Well I do, I enjoy vydia and football a lot and playing my piano too, it is just that I'm not completetly filled with that. Maybe it isn't that my worst problem, I think that is that no one will ever hate me as much as I hate myself. I'm simply worthless and useless, if I died what would happen? The earth will still rotate, internet would still work, everything would be the same. And I don't know who I am quoting but "They say suicide isn't an option but they never gave you a better one". You tried but I'm asocial, probably have anxiety, I hate people, at least the ones I know in my small city, but I want to be with them just to be normal. That is my truth dream, to be normal, and it is quite sad.
I don't want to waste money and the time of a therapist on someone who doesn't deserve to be alive.
And thanks Veli a lot, I wish I could talk to you ofently and not just through 4chan, but anyway keep this thread going and thanks again.
> Don't know if this the kind of architecture you like.> Sorry for my english. I don't live anywhere that they talk in it. 