>>6098831sounds like you got a good case of "this wasnt what life was supposed to be like" blues. if you got that, probably want to ask yourself what life was supposed to be like. then after that, compare it to what life is like, ask yourself if you were wrong. if you were, ask yourself what you want from life, figuratively and (if possible) literally.
after that... dunno, i havent gotten to that point either.
feels like trains have been taking me places all my life. i used to resent it, would say shit like trains dont go anywhere, they are just endless loops. but if you got a lot of loops lined up, you can sort of make a squiggly straight line, which in a lot of ways is cooler than moving from point a to point b. after i started thinking that way, i started to enjoy my time on them a bit more, even when i was just following the loop.