>>8081732nice Trails wallpaper! love that game
>>8082719ive been out of college for some time, but i do get that feeling of listless. i had it then too. what helped was playing my keyboard piano. and i also had a journal for my thoughts which i hate to reread cuz im sure its fill of young 20s yearning. Id say try to ween off the attention you get from online people and pursue a more outside hobby. thats just me tho. fill that time up with something, its no use letting your mind become like stagnant water, full respect to you anon. you can do it! [cringe to say that i know, but really thats all the mantra you need when things seem grey and you want a change, be the change you wanna see!]
>>8082715no you dont! i thought the same way, and still kind of do, but we have to live man! stay strong, i believe in you! Im doing it to, despite ho unfair this shit world may be, have the courage and confidence to stand up every morning!
>>8071327i kinda wanna say that, i did for a while want to die and kill myself, and on my recent birthday (im 26 now) i planned to go to a train station and jump in front of a train. but i had a strange dream two days prior to my bday that effected me deeply. and so i decided to go, and run it off and ponder on it, as well as many other things. 11 miles and i had hit an epiphany, I still cant explain. But it involved getting back in touch with my younger self (who was a avid runner) out on the road. i "felt" that i met him whilst running, a strange presence only lasting a few seconds, then i felt being watched by my relatives who had passed as well. The whole thing lasted about 10 seconds. but thats all that was needed. I finished, changed, and got back to the train station to head home, i sort of reflected on what had occurred to me then. and i nearly broke down and cried there and then and luckily i was alone on the platform so i did in fact let some tears go and then some while on the train lol. 1/2
