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The world just seems like a wasteland after that. People could be walking past you, talking with each other, laughing together, but it's a wasteland. Just like being lonely in a crowd, you could be in the middle of a bustling city but when you feel dead inside that bustling city is dead.
I do understand how you feel to an extent OP. I've tried killing myself in the past, the reasons we come to these crosses may be different, but I understand the base feeling of wanting to end it all. Not sure if my worlds help, I certainly hope they do, I hope OP and whoever else reads this feel some solace. Words are cheap but I'm poor.