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I've been using literally a plain black wallpaper for years. At night, when I'm tired, but resisting sleep, I find myself staring at the screen, blank, void, depth. I listen to Explosions in the Sky at night often, and I just zone, sometimes for until something distracts me from my never-ending battle of wanting to experience nothingness in everything, but also wanting to feel so overwhelming happy. I know happiness for me is impossible, but I have to dream. If I can't kill myself, I might as well go for the next best thing.