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I just can't get over this fucking girl. All I hear is "it'll get better with time" and shit like that but its been months and months already and the pain gets so much worse everyday. I know it sounds so damn trivial but this is on top of many other family issues and huge life changes that are too complicated to get into in a place like this. Maybe it's because I saw her as a best friend (hell, she was the only real friend I had ever had) and she only sees me as just "some ex" that she wants to forget about and move on from. Maybe she convinced herself I'm the absolute worst person in the world for making the mistake I did, she was always a bit delusional.
But whatever it is she has already moved on with her new life in a different country with so many new friends and lovers and I've been left behind more lonely than I ever thought I could be capable of feeling. I've always been too much of a thinker and now I feel like I can't get away from my thoughts and they are eating me from the inside out. This, like I said before, on top of everything else that is going on in my life makes me want to be asleep constantly, if only all I dreamt about wasn't her. Everything is the opposite of "getting better with time". I feel like I'm being eaten alive.
