>>7106389If I maybe completely honest, though I'm not sure I fully believe if it exists or not, I live only because I'm afraid of what possible consequences there might be if I were to end it. Like if hell were to truly exist, then I may end up reliving my death over and over for all eternity. That is what scares me the most and why I still live, I don't have much purpose, I just go on as I believe I'm supposed to. Though yes I have considered ending it, multiple times in fact throughout my life I've considered it, I've never known love, never really known true happiness, but I myself am all too familiar with the downsides of life such as suffering, sickness, being left wanting for the most basic of human necessities. But still I keep going on. Anyway, to finish this up, I suppose I'm not sure why I continue to live, or what my purpose in this life is but I'm sure eventually it'll become clear. At least I hope so.
