>>7838245im actually in the exact same position. left my ex last december to spare us both from the awful toxic relationship. took me forever to dump her because i knew how much it would hurt her, but i knew i had to do it. she was in love with me and, although i didnt know it at the time, i was in love with her.
i wonder what my life would be like if i was different. if i handled our problems better, handled her issues better. maybe happier. maybe nothing would be different and wed still both be miserable or maybe she wouldve left me by now.
it kills me, and has been hurting me, for a few months now about the way i left her and the pain i caused her. she said she may never forgive me.
now she has another boyfriend and im still alone. i fear ill enter another relationship and have it be the same so i dont know if i should avoid a relationship outright.
i feel you though, were together in the same boat.
