>>7497599OP hearts out for you I went through a similar experience. 5 year relationship, in the last 6 months learned she cheated on me multiple times and finally had to leave when she tried to kill herself in front of me while blaming me for it. Should have left earlier but I loved that bitch. Left destroyed and completely emasculated. Three years later and I’ve finally built myself back up and am in a new healthier relationship. Take it slow relearn and remember who you are. I can honestly say it gets better. Best of luck to ya.