>>7893899I'm at a pretty shitty point in my life, to be honest. I live with type one diabetes - which is a pretty shit disease to have in America, considering how expensive insulin and doctor's appointments are - and I'm strapped with student debt. A few months ago, I almost died in the middle of a city from hypoglycemia, and it's given me some form of PTSD - I don't even remember how I got an ambulance and made it to a hospital; I've had panic attacks almost every single day since then.
That said, I've gotten therapy and some meds to help deal with the attacks. My therapist is wonderful, and the meds - a low dose of lorazepam - are only for extreme panic attacks. My friends have been beautifully supportive of me, which is a luxury very few people have.
But, with the student debt and stuff, I've decided to pack my bags and begin moving to the Netherlands. It might not be the best decision for my mental health, since I can barely leave the house, but I need a place where I won't be strapped down with so many medical costs, and a cheaper education. I'm scared, but at the same time feeling hopeful to find a better life.
