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Glad to see threads like this still
I know i'm young and probably just seeing things that aren't there but its real to me and stresses me out and makes me miserable.
I'm 20, and i'm in love with my best friend who just doesn't share that same connection with me. The thing about that too is she is everything i could have ever asked for in a woman, she is beautiful, she listens, she makes me smile just by being alive, and in my eyes she is perfect. I've seen her be with other guys and i have always been there to support her and do anything that makes her happy, like a best friend should. I've confessed these feelings for her recently now that she has been single and she has been for a while now. She says she doesn't want us to not be friends but she doesn't want to be with me romantically. This makes me very emotionally torn apart, but i'm just glad she is alive and happy with her life right now.
My stresses don't stop there. I've been at a crossroads in my life for quite sometime and I've chosen to follow the same path every time i reach that crossroad, that same crossroad. Every time. I can't handle it anymore, my mother is a tweaker, she has 2 other children who she can't take care of and she hasn't had a job in over 10 years. All of her boyfriends have been scumbags or fucked up in one way or another while they were with her, or still are. Gladly my father pulled his shit together and was a good father who took care of me. But now i have 2 little brothers, one who is 3, one who isn't even 1 year old yet. She lost custody of her second son, and now he is in a family filled with drunks, but atleast they care for him and treat him right, and he has a stable home. My youngest brother, her third son, she has custody of and is taking care of him. She hasn't had a stable living place for years, she is constantly moving, has no friends, uses meth, smokes weed, and is a recovering alcoholic. She doesn't work, doesn't have medical insurance for her or my little brother.
