>>7208884I dropped out of two high-schools so far. The first time was voluntary, but the second time was because I kept fucking up my grades. I was just incapable of studying, even for an hour or so, I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Looking back it makes me fucking hate myself for being such a lazy fuck. I left behind all my friends without saying a word, because I just felt too ashamed to face them. I haven't spoken to them since. Part of me thinks they didn't care about me as much as I thought. I still haven't gotten over it. I still watch YouTube videos from my former school and read the school papers, and it makes me so upset because I'm just reminding myself of what I'm missing. I just want someone to talk to, but I can't and it's eating me from the inside. I feel so goddamn lonely. I'm 19 btw.
