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Well, something that is much needed for some of you, is to be told that it IS your fault. I know I needed it. I suffer from chronic depression ever since my brother killed himself when I was young. I took it hard and never pulled my shit together and let it sit that way for years until I was in and out of the hospital for suicidal tendencies and shit. My girlfriend at the time and my best friend both decided that they didnt want to deal with my selfish wild emotional flailing. I would wake up determined to make something out of myself, lose steam, lose any happiness i came in with, and they, after becoming used to me being a kind and happy person, got sick of the new me. So they dropped me, told me everything was fault, said I was a horrible person, and told to me to pick up the pieces. And every day after that for nearly half a year I saw them every day. Watched them make new friends to replace me, ignore me, and act like I never mattered. And I'm still working through that. It never gets better, it never stops hurting, it never stops burning. But I learned that if I want to be able to deal with the pain, I have to treat the fucking wound. Find new people to involve myself with. Find hobbies and ways to improve myself to distract myself from the past mistakes I cant fix and to help me fix the mistakes I can. No one can fix this shit for you because, as you've said, they cant. And maybe you cant fix it. But dont let the shit fester and get worse. Theres no point in that bullshit.
