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20 years old, I haven't stepped in a classroom since 2019, and I completely wasted my teens. I live in a shitty South American country which is currently going into a full-blown economic crisis. Since last year I'd been planning to move to Europe for college to try to begin a new life and finally start living, but arguments with my parents and the economic situation completely cancelled that plan that I'd been working on and planning for the past 7 months.
In January, I met a girl online who was in a similar situation as me. An American hoping to move to Europe to an university very close to mine. Since I shut myself in during the summer, she became pretty much the only person I spoke with regularly aside from my small family and a single friend. I cannot even begin to describe her, she is gorgeous, disciplined, incredibly smart but at the same time has my exact sense of humor and a super outgoing personality. I became completely obsessed with this girl. For a brief moment she liked me and told it to me. She said she was excited for what we could become once we met. Long story short, she moved to Europe over her summer break to learn the language and prepare for University and we're losing touch. My brain can't stop creating these images of her having sex with a random dude she just met and having the time of her life while I rot away in my depression in this shithole.
From time to time I get sudden rushes of positivity, but I know that it's just my brain trying to cope.
Life really sucks right now anons. I know I have to do something but I'm very deep in the pit and feel like I'll never catch up.
