>>7283940I know im not meant to be in my life, nothing gives me any purpose of prolonged happiness except getting fucked up and trying to escape reality. in my 20's and have wasted my teens and early 20's wishing for death or to be alone on another planet. I dont know what im looking for anymore except an escape. it sucks to not have death as an option. please god let me go... i will only bring more pain to this painful world. i hate it so much, i can never spill my guts to anyone except a shotgun, i fucking hate this so much. its been so many years, i cant keep doing this, please let me go. please, fuck i cant do this for another 15 years, let alone the 50+ i might live for. fuck it
