>>7346235Not sure what to say here other than "I completely relate, but want to fix it." To try and keep things brief, I started college for Physics, got scared that I was going to end up as some do-nothing number cruncher all my life, and changed majors to English.
Got my BA, couldn't get a decent job. Fine, back to grad school. Got my MA, can't get a decent job.
I was working in an office as an e-mail clerk, but it was unfulfilling and barely paid enough to keep my bills and rent in check. I live with 2 other guys about the same age and desperately wanted to get out and find a place with my girlfriend. At the time, she was unemployed and looking for work as a drop out from law school and it was rough going.
A few months ago I spiraled into a REALLY bad manic state, lost my job, my roommates are moving out in 3 months, and my gf ended up leaving me last week. Now I'm terrified of what to do, can't find a job that feels either fulfilling or at least pays what I "should" be worth with an MA. Most of the time I tell myself "Oh, I'll look into learning programming", since I love the idea of being able to be a programmer, but I have no idea where to start and doubt anyone would hire some 30-something without a CS degree as a programmer.
Most days I try to get out of bed and put out some applications, but the same thing always happens: get depressed about ex-gf, get depressed about shitty jobs I have to submit for, get depressed about likely needing to move into a shitty apartment in a few months, feel like there's no way out, go back to sleep for another 4 hours and try again.
Any suggestions, advice, help, anything would be appreciated. I just want to work a job that pays enough to afford (even a small) house and doesn't feel like a high school student could do it.
