>>6535652I feel the same way and the fact that there are others like us should make me feel better, but it just makes it worse. I don't think there is purpose to life as a whole. It's scary but it makes sense to me.
>>6536096That sounds horrible. I think your depressing undertone is justified. It's okay to feel like shit even if things are going well.
>>6536163> I don't want to grow up.growing up isn't the problem. It's disillusionment. I think it's completely possible to stay happy even when you grow up. You just have to stay stupid.
>>6536338I have no advice. Just want to say well done.
here are some things I'd like to get off my chest:
>I have lost all my religion (my community is very religious) and it terrifies me. I wish i could believe again.>I am unable to feel any form of satisfaction when I achieve things. I have to fake pride. Which I find ridiculous.>I cry a lot when I'm alone. I've started to designate times when I'm alone for crying. I can even start and stop it at will now.>I hate it when people try to gauge my emotional state.>I hate it when people try to induce a certain emotion in me.>I instinctively point out all my short comings if I feel that I am, or will be, judged. >I'm self absorbed. 