>>7140664My dad ended his own life as well, threw me into times of great despair where the only thing i longed for was the next drink, developed a serious substance abuse problem that comes and goes im actually fighting it now as a 20 year old, trying my hardest to succeed in college and live up to be the man that my parents raised me to be seeing how my mom is not only struggling with the lose of her true love but her own son slipping into self-destructive behaviors. I want the good in me to prevail, to make myself something to make a name for myself, yet I hate myself when I turn to self-medication to escape my feelings of numbness, inadequacy and sadness. It's nice to know that /wg has such a great community. Im just so tired of turning to drugs just to be happy, never as a kid growing up would I imagine that I would sit alone in my room pouring shot after shot, taking pill after pill, to forget about who I am and feel as if in this moment everything is okay, I am okay :(
