>>6677428I've had an increasing feeling of my life being destined to end soon, thoughts of dying and death are nothing new to me, but this idea I might be the one to end it is deeply terrifying and I honestly have no idea how to reconnect to a life that has always been so distant and full of regrets. I'm not even that outwardly depressed, I keep getting out of bed because I believe love is worth the pain but anymore I'd rather be numb. Why the fuck don't I care about myself?
