>>7501745I'm wondering to myself if my grandfather would be proud of me. The sad part is when he pasted away a couple of months back, I could only remember the times he was pissed off at me.Not saying it was always gloom, there were some times he was genuinely happy with me. However, in the hour of his death i could only remember the bad and I hate myself for it. During the funeral I tried my hardest to keep in my tears and I don't think I really allowed myself to grieve. I believe the grief finally hit me this week because I just started to break down and cry over the fact that he is gone. He was a man among men and I looked up to him. I would trade everything in the world just to speak to him one more time.
