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My ex-best friend saved this to my computer.
Half of me wishes desperately to just reconnect with him, because he used to be a brother to me. The other half knows I would be a better person if I had never met him, and that he's not going to make any attempt to stop abusing his friends because it's inconvenient to him. There's a lot going on in my life, and it's all just slightly worse knowing that I can never talk to him about any of it. I'm left with nobody to talk to about pretentious music or game design. I'm left without my best friend of years. I've never hated someone so close to me this much before. All I can hope is that if I write enough songs about him, I'll just grow fatigued with the act of hating him and let everything go. But I can never be his friend again. I won't let myself.
