>>6987791>remember that training I talked about?>another 3 weeks, no communication with outside world>lots of time to reflect, know I will see her when I go home>am at peace with whatever happens but I know what I want>I want her>I want to see her when I wake up, I want to come home to her, I want to travel the world with her>I want to see her laugh, I want to see her smile, even after everything I want her>training is over, rush home>she seems hesitant to see me>first time in six months>go get ice cream, weird at first but then its like nothing ever happened>still feel like best friends>go sit on park bench, ask her what she wants>she doesn't know, starts to cry>instinctively, just cup her face and kiss her>feels rush back into both of us>she tells me she thinks she wants to try>has to leave for work, I'm grinning like an idiot, promise to see each other the next day>next day we meet at park>walk around, talk about everything not serious>change the subject to serious>let her know that I only want back in if she is serious>I won't do long distance after I graduate>Approaching four years since we first started dating>when I graduate, I want her to come with me wherever uncle sam sends me (stateside)>that would mean giving up her dream of theater, big shows, maybe broadway>watch her think for a minute>longest sixty seconds of my life>she starts crying>"I can't do it anon, I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry.">fast forward to today>exactly one year since she first broke up with me>still in love with herWill it ever get better? I chased her for a year after we broke up and she is still who I think about. Sorry for the incredibly long post but it felt good to tell the whole story.
