>>7687574Hey anon. It really breaks my heart to hear what you're going through, because I know that pain and that worry you feel. You're still young and in school, which means you still have plenty of time to find your footing and improve in school. Talk to your profs about working on projects with them or see if you can join a lab. Men have to think long term with their goals; it's not about succeeding right now, it's about making sure you get there. A weak foundation doesn't build a strong home.
And speaking of goals and houses; don't kill yourself, anon. I promise you, it's not worth it. If you can set in your mind that dark and long term fantasy of getting a house and killing yourself, then you can certainly set a bright and long term fantasy of living in that house. Make every step you take be in service of getting that house, and then another goal after that. You can do it, anon. You're the only you who matters to you.
