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Currently 25, somewhat fresh out the military for about 2 years. Have been unemployed since that time, and the time before the Army I was a 19/20 year old who didn't do anything of note in terms of work or knowing what I wanted to do in college, so I did it as a cop-out to get some sort of direction. It helped a bit, in terms of in the moment, but after the moment, I feel much of the same. I kind of just settled on doing comp sci shit / coding, or if I lose faith in that I can always use the VA-paid tuition assistance. But now I'm a NEET (currently looking for some customer service remote job) who lives in his parents house and it sucks. Well, relatively, its cozy, but the toxicity my mom tosses around really bothers me. She's miserable due to work stress and brings it home constantly. Even my father, who is ultra chill in comparison, is sick of hearing her yell about everything and even stood up for me when she would berate me verbally. The littlest things are somehow my fault or because of me in a way. It breeds nothing but resentment I have towards my mom, which is unfortunate, but a direct result of this. She doesn't seem to understand how depression can affect someone longer than a quick lapse. She also does the classic manipulation thing of buying me things to say "Look what I did for you" etc etc.
Just hoping I secure this job and save up money so I can move out and finally feel like I'm an adult with agency, and so I can fully focus on doing the coding thing or school if I wanted to.
Hope you all are doing well. Somehow, sometime, we are all gonna make it.
