>>6435144This might come off as assholish but, you're only just turning 20.
Take heart in knowing you have roughly 3-5 times the current amount of time you've been alive, and probably 6-12 times the amount of time you've been considered a rational person left to live.
Like it or not, shit will get worse for you at some point, but thankfully things will likely get a lot better as well.
As for me:
Sitting here at home. Bored isn't the right word, but i'm not entertained either. Ennui is too strong of a word. Due to the economy tanking here in Alberta, I was forced to take 2 weeks of "vacation" from work starting the week of christmas, so until mid january i'm barely scrapping by covering bills with paychecks. My job awesome, but i spend all day there waiting to get home to live my life, but get home too tired to do much. Weekends should be my time, but, i just spend them surfing 4chan and I don't know why. So here i drift. Slowly by /wg/ today, for no particular reason then its a board i ain't been to recently.