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I need to get this off my chest before I explode:
>Senior year
>18 almost getting 19
>In a godawful high school
>One of the worst in the Louisiana
>Missed an entire month of school because I fell into a severe pit of depression after the flu
>Had suicide on my mind for the entire month
>Man the fuck up and went to school after a teacher emailed me and asked what was going on; not the staff or even my friends
>Come back thinking I wouldn't understand any subjects
>None of the subjects changed
>School is still painfully easy because they just want us to pass, not for us to learn.
>Still failing a ton of classes because of lack of motivation/bullshit subjects from my elective classes that I am not required to pass
>School friends have been telling me I will not graduate every time they've seen me since I've come back 2 weeks ago
>They're are total cunts. I only stick around so I won't be fingered as a "white-boy school shooter"
>Can't even disagree with them because despite my school being fucking garbage, I still have to pay a senior fee of $200 or I just flat-out fail regardless of my ACT, ASVAB, or EOC scores
>This is for a rundown high school btw, not a college where I would understand why people are getting fees up the ass
>I have to sleep for dinner most of the time so I know I can't pay that shit off
>My dad cuts grass for a living so the spring rains, which have come earlier here than most other states, have caused him to be put off work
>I was already doing pretty bad before, but now I have to actually go to school to eat
>And when I do actually go to school and try to fake a smile, I get kids in my class that want to lecture me about how white people are privileged because of politics
>I must have had my white privilege check mailed at the wrong address because I am a goddamn wreck on the verge of jumping off a bridge.
Shit.
Still don't know if I want to off myself or just give my service away to the Air Force and never return to this god awful state again.
