>>80319273 years ago I uprooted my life to a different city, away from friends and family, for a girl I met during covid back then. I have a stable job, rent an apartment together, everything I need for a cozy existence for as long as I want.
I just don't want her anymore. I love her, but I don't like her. We have no common interests anymore, we don't do anything together, she's deathly afraid of crowds/people because of self image issues, and can't be out in the sun for too long due to fear of her cancer coming back. A myriad of mental illnesses makes it so she has no libido either, so I'm here serving as a roommate to whom she can express her love and care very seldomly, and that's about it.
I have felt this way about her and our relationship for over a year, and I can't fucking end it and go back home. I gave up my support system, my hobbies, my physical and mental health, and I don't have the courage to uproot my life again, to let everything I have here go... and to break her heart and possibly ruin her life more than her own circumstances already have in the past. I know it sounds like bullshit, doing this to myself to be a "good guy", but every time I picture talking about it with her I just freeze and try to forget about it. Day after day.
Hope you anons are doing good. Sorry for whining, you did ask what's on my mind tho!!
