>>7647014>>7646815I can see that it is setup perfectly, but that is what I know will make this hurt the most.
When something seems like it was delivered into my lap and I screw it up. I know it will hurt me even more.
I don't want to put hope in something I cannot guarantee, but at the same time, without hope, I cannot be motivated to move forward with something like this.
All of my friends met their gf randomly and by playing this weird game of social media, but it's always short lived and for sex or brief company.
I never wanted to be part of that, I want to find someone I truely love, and who truely loves me back, but I realize that movies and books make this seem far more regular than is really the case.
The truth is, it is very very rare. It's disappointing, and it is failures like these that bring me to realize this further and lose all hope.
Thanks again for responses. Hope you like some of the wallpapers I posted.
