>>7852253I will be turning 23 in like 3 weeks, have been feeling like that for a while now but after the pandemic kinda destroyed the prospects of my inertia driven life I decided to revive some childhood dreams and have been working towards them just because I didn't really know what else to do other than become some computer vegetable that lives of his mom. Every step forward makes my life harder, the culmination of my "dream" will turn my world 180º degrees and I can already forseen many years of struggle and hardship. And while I feel like I'm going somewhere I still don't know if it's what I want but I really don't have anything else to do but carry on. I just wish I could tackle my personal development with more diligence, I got two jobs and getting the needed money and papers to achieve the more material parts of my dream but I'm not even close to being mature enough to face the future. I haven't touched my books in years, I can barely bring myself to study, I stopped working out, I have no social skills or network. Wish me luck, I'll need it out there.
