So, whenever I need to vent out my thoughts I came to this board. There is no "what's on your mind?" thread and I didn't want to create one. Seeing that this thread is rubbis I will just vent out here.
So, I've been feeling miserable lately. I am stuck in a city I hate, studing a master degree I hate and with virtually no friends. No gf, no nothing. It's getting hard to wake up. I go to sleep feeling that I have lost the day. I constantly feel that I am living a life i don't want to live.
I need to get out of here, I will probably give up on my master, maybe study a different one next year. You know, if wasn't for the virus I would just give up on everything, pack up my shit and go to Japan. Travel around there, get lost, get drunk, learn the languaje and feel alive for once. Yeah, I'm a weeb, I guess we are all here.
Anyway, I cannot keep on living this way. I am wasting my life. I feel miserable. I don't want to live like this. I am fed up of things going wrong.
I mean, to be fair I've been having bad luck lately. Love, studies, money. Bad luck. But, being honest again, I have made everything worse. I am a helpless idiot. Insted of using what I have to improve my situation, making the most of what I have and getting out of here, I just waste times. I leave days fly away.
I am a helpless idiot. But fuck, It's hard. It's hard to keep on trying after failing so many times.
But. I cannot stand things just being this way. The rest of the world keeps on moving while I masturbate to cute anime girls. I am wasting my life.
I'll go do something about it.
PS: Napoli train station is the most disturbing pape I have. The place is quite a shithole.
