>>1513736Go buy one of these things and actually do it. Then go buy another one, and actually do that one. Keep going until you have the mental and physical capability to actually operate a pencil.
Also you said you'd kill yourself in a year's time if you hadn't accomplished anything, and it's been sixteen months and you haven't even tried. This must surely be an elaborate troll, how are you managing to eat, pay bills and so on? If you're in care, why won't your caretaker help you become less of a parasite?
