>>775654Hey, I'm circumcised, too. Also depressed, but not exactly because of these things. Still trying to do my thing, man. Trust me, I understand how you feel. Fuck anyone giving you shit. I despise my parents' decision to mutilate me because of societal pressure. I was 4-5 years old. They took me for a ride, made up some bullshit reason. Dodged all my questions. A relative joked that they were going to cut my dick off. I cried, everyone laughed. Tried to run, the dude restrained me while laughing heartily. It was not a fucking game to me. I didn't know about the barbaric ritual, and it wasn't even explained to me afterwards.
It was not professional, one of the fuckers went "snip-snip" with his scissors, laughing, enjoying my horrified reaction. It was just a fucking joke to them, another day at work. Tried to resist, but they held me down. I couldn't do shit as they pulled my pants down. I was powerless, and felt the most chilling, sinking feeling deep in my guts. I've never felt like this before, my parents always took good care of me. Just a minute ago, I was with my mom, so this contrast hit me a hundred times harder. It was genuine terror. I shouted for my mom, my dad, and I'm sure they could hear me, but they didn't come in, they didn't stop them. It was just so stressful. I saw a needle inserted in my penis, and blacked out. I still don't know if it was because of some medicine, or absolute terror.
Some time later, I woke up. That's when they gifted me a train set. You know, a stupid fucking toy can compensate for all the horror and trauma. It was cheap Chinese shit, too. Don't even like trains. Wow, I'm really glad you can feel normal among your peers now, mom. What, ask me? Who the fuck am I, right? It's not like I'm getting a part of me chopped off. My opinion doesn't matter. I bled for days, probably weeks. Couldn't speak for a while. A week, maybe. Didn't trust my folks after this. Still have trust issues and repressed rage against them.
