So, there are anime that attempt to get this sort of "Oh God, what have I become?" reaction of NEETS, or Otaku, like "Welcome to the NHK" or "End of Evangelion," and if that sort of thing gets you started, good for you, but really, you need to change your habits in a way that helps you learn new things, which will make you different person.
As long as you believe the same shit, you'll be the same person, who does the same shit.
