>>1169062Try learning languages, maybe go to lidya machova channel, it features cool stuff.
Learn to play a musical instrument. If you are willing to invert, is something really satisfying to learn, and as well as languages a life-long travel of growing, as a person.
Maybe reading books. You can go with miracle morning, is a really nice book.
But also, by all means don't get yourself misleaded.
Happiness isn't something brought by the exterior. Is something that grows within, anon. And it has little to do with pleasure, as you seem to have been relating to it. It is no little thing, but the hallmark of a life lived correctly.
Seek your own answers, find your own path, and enjoy this while across the way.
Make proper use of the shot you were bestowed, anon. Trace your path as if you would live forever, but cast away doubts and enjoy it as if you were to be called aboard today.
You can do it, anon. He and I too believe in you.
Hopefully you will find it; but once there, don't let fear ever stop yourself. What belongs to you are your desires, aversions, and opinions. What other people may think, and do, are not a belonging of your own to desire it to be as you wish, nor to make your happiness depedant on.
Keep that boat forward.
