i need advice.

what should i do when my spirit has been utterly broken and ive done nothing but watch youtube and masturbate for 3 weeks straight?
i feel like shit constantly and i need to change something, i used to have projects i worked on and i used to have goals but i broke and i just cant keep trying anymore. i wanted to make a game, its all ive ever wanted to do but i hate the process so i gave up after several years of trying. i tried to get a job again now that i finished college but was rejected from literally everywhere. outside of programming and working on games i had nothing else i really enjoyed but i simply just cant do it anymore.

i dont know what to do.
i cant enjoy anything anymore and have become increasingly depressed due to my spirit being crushed and my dreams being destroyed.

what would you guys recommend?
>picrel is the background art i made for the titlescreen of my game that likely wont ever be finished