I know this isn't very 4chan behavior but I feel bad for how I responded initially, though I doubt you care. Just being how I am, I had to say it.
>>1477492I can understand hating yourself but you should try to find a reason to live on, as daunting as that may sound. I have suicidal episodes from time to time, but I have obligations to people that keep me from going through with it.
>>1477493It's good that you're at least prolonging it because of that, but I'm sure you could find or develop something more.
>>1477494I understand you don't like talking to people. That's clearly a huge hurdle here, and it also wouldn't help a ton with finding more reasons to live. Would you consider getting a pet, maybe? If your place allows it.
>>1477495I don't think those people are stupid. I have trouble seeing value in myself a lot of the time, but the idea that others see it helps me to keep going.
I may not know you, but I'm sure you have plenty to offer this world. And you must have things you enjoy doing or want to do someday, right? We only get one chance at life, it would be a shame to throw it away before having those experiences.