So, I need help finding the name of this album, or even really the artist I might be thinking of

Album/Song/Whatever:
>sounded dissonant and EXTRAORDINARILY tired, exhausted, defeated, and at times like random noise
>seriously it was ROUGH
>felt exactly like how it feels to be withdrawing hard, feeling utterly physiologically and mentally sick and horrible
>If there's a style to it at all, I guess "grungey"
>from the 90s or early 00s, I think
>in an interview I read once, the artist explicitly said he made it for heroin money (or some similar addiction, but i think heroin)
>I recall reading it was effectively delisted and pulled from sale after a year or two, I think by the request of the artist himself

Artist:
>had a heroin addiction and other substance abuse too I think
>got mostly or fully clean later in life
>i think he died young from complications of that lifestyle regardless
>was white (can't remember more about his appearance)
>was American

Pic is NOT the artist (at least, I don't know who it is) but honestly it feels kinda similar. If you know the album, you'd get what I mean, similar vibe between pic and album.