In the mornings I take Paxil/Paroxetine and zyprexa/Olanzapine at night, (antidepressants and antipsychotics)

But every day I feel more sad and I am more aggressive with my parents. I feel a lot of pain and sadness, the world I see is horrible and I see nothing good. What I fear most is hurting my family. I have never had friends and I have always been bullied I think about suicide but that would only make my mother and father suffer.
I don't know what to do anymore.

sorry for the I's, is my translator.