I need help finding a youtube video/channel. Posts reminded me of pamtri or surreal entertainment in that they were abstract in nature. The one video I remember watching a few times over was one that had the line "it is your dogma that holds you back," read in a low raspy voice, and then two clear voices came in, one of which said "is it my dogma that holds me back?" with the other one answering "it may very well be," continuing for some time with an explanation that included the idea of succumbing to the beck and call of the void