>>1546242Baby steps anon but it starts with not having a victim mindset. I say this not to hurt your feelings but so that hopefully you can realise that more is within your power than you realise/act like. Even your way of reaching out is saying victim mindset - 3000 words in an obscure format, transfer. Instead of this methodology, pick one specific problem per week to solve and reach out about it specifically. Start with researching your heart thing, or start with How to have a "can do" attitude. Doctors will not help you, no one can help you with this because it is ultimately internal. I imagine you have a bunch or trauma from childhood that you have not dealt with, the body shutting you down like this is its way of making you deal with it. Also you are scared of fear, this is leading to a out of control chain reaction. You must become unafraid of fear.
>I'm 27 from mexico. I've had agoraphobia since 2017 and I don't want to stay like this forever. >It all started in 2017, I had a tonsillectomy, but 3 days after that, I had hemorrhage, so I stop almost everything for a week, I only ate jelly and icecream because of the fear of having another hemorrhage. >This made me lose weight in only two weeks and I felt weak, and this caused something in me that triggered the beginning of my current shitty life. This is the start of your note, yes? It shows the attitude that led a panic attack to escalate into agoraphobia.
Surgery problems -> ate nothing but jello out of fear. This is a mistake, and it is your responsibility. I think many things is your life are over-reaction out of fear. You have to be willing to feel fear without taking the action that the fear recommends. Start being ok with feeling fear and eventually you will get much better. I believe in you!
