>>966222Anon, I think most of those things are mildly quirky. Not normal for sure, but then again what (or who) is. But this
>And when I think to myself I can hear CIA and others taking listening and notes and talking amongst themselves about what to do next.this is a textbook red flag for schizophrenia. Please, try to find help. Your brain is wired badly and that's not something that'll clear up on it's own. In fact, it will get worse as you get older.
I'm strangely qualified to speak about this. I'm a depressed loner with many psychological issues (that keep worsening from lack of social contact). But a little over two weeks ago I served as jury foreman on a murder trial against a schizophrenic man.
Fuck me, that was a wake-up call how fucking sane I actually am in comparison. He had been struggling for years and then it just spiraled. He went off his meds, a few months later his wife left him and one evening last summer he flagged down a car in front of his house and tried to stab the driver to death. It was a complete stranger but he thought it was someone he knew from years ago who was stalking him and he wanted him to stop. They struggled, he fled, night-long stand-off with the police ensued until they tasered his ass 3 times because he wouldn't give up the knife.
We received an hour-long lecture from a psychiatric examiner, we had hundreds of pages of medical casefiles to read. It was really interesting and eye-opening. You can totally get this under control. Meds help, but most importantly you need therapy and structure. You can absolutely lead a normal life if you take your condition seriously. But if you don't try and control it, it can end really badly if the voices ever get the better of you. I had to read him the verdict. The poor sod will spend perhaps the rest of his life in a closed medical facility (or until he "stops being a danger to the community" - good luck with that).
