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The thing is I got the hot blonde girl with blue eyes and the over developed tits at 17 and we were together for 4 years. She was a lovely person. I used her as a literal fuck doll.
I'm just a horrible person and I've always been a horrible person. I can't relate to anyone else. I can manipulate them. I'm not a sociopath or a psychopath I feel regret and empathy only after the fact tho, in the moment, it's fun for me to use and abuse people even though I know its wrong and destructive. I'm missing the spark that most people have. I'm missing quite a few things that tell you not to do things, or I can suppress it or something. I thought this issue would go away with time but it hasn't. I'm 31 now and as dead inside as I was at 17. I've tried conventional fixes, therapy, psychiatry and etc, they couldn't find anything wrong with me, but there's definitely something wrong, I abuse and manipulate everyone besides my own family.