>>18036118i keep holding out, but the waits just keep getting longer and longer. i almost get the impression this is his way of "getting rid of me".
>>18036132the large majority of people i encounter will discard your humanity at an instant, when their status and social standing is at stake. human interactions are a game to them, a ladder to climb at any cost.
i also find it hard to go outside without taking interactions so seriously, like how judgmental society can be of me, and how they're either afraid of me, or how they perceive me as a threat. it makes me ashamed of myself, and want to disappear from the face of society, in order to not cause any problems.
