>>19378471i don't have many... sorry...
i know that feel. i had a dream where i was in my apartment on the top floor where i live. outside, i could see a neighboring apartment with people on the roof having a gathering. suddenly, an earthquake started, and i saw that apartment infront of me collapse, all those people just falling to their deaths. the apartment i was in suddenly started collapsing too, and i remember desperately trying to intellectualize and figure out a way to survive the impact, but i realized my fate was inevitable, and the only choice i had was to accept and embrace my end. there is supposed to be a giant earthquake where i live, and after that dream, i can't stop being paranoid of every subtle shake or vibration i feel in my apartment. i'm afraid of dying too... i think it's partly why i stopped trying to live and now feel ironically dead inside.
